Ever Think About…

I was having a conversation the other day with a good friend and this question came up “If their was one thing in your life you could change what would it be?”.  Well of coarse the thing that causes me a huge amount of stress in my life is money.  So I immediatly said that “I wished I didn’t have to worry about money any longer”.  The person agreed that it was a good change and that most people would say the same thing.  It took me about two seconds to change my mind and I restated my wish.  I said, “No, no, no, wait.  If there is ONLY one thing in my life I could change, I want it to be that my daughter didn’t have Diabetes anymore”.   At that point I started to get a little emotional, I got that feeling, my eyes started to well up, my throat tightened, I held back the tears.

It’s harder to do that now as I write this.  I would trade anything in this world for her to be able to live like most of us, to not have to try and count every gram of carbohydrates that she eats, to be able to exercise without worrying that once she is done will her blood sugar drop dangerously low. For over four years she got injections twice daily and had to test her blood sugar at least four times a day.  Today she still does the testing, but she is on an insulin pump and that makes our lives a little easier.  We still meticulously count the carbohydrates however most of the guess work is all calculated for us.

I saw a t-shirt once and said “Insulin is not a cure”.  I agree, but for now its all we have, so we move forward, we live our lives the best way we know how.

I thank those people that listen to me.  I still worry though, but mostly I hope.

I thought I would have so many things to write about and that you would all love me for it. LOL but I can never seem to come up with anything to write about. So yes I suck, okay, not really, just being going through a slow time, that’s how summers are. So many other things to do than just sit in front of a computer. I have been out working on my photography. I have gotten so many good photos, you can check them out on my other site. Anyway, happy August, I will post some of my photos here soon.